Wowowowow its been a long while since I've posted on here. No matter, as this will probably be the last post I will do at devart (at least on my page; I'll still check my friends accounts from time to time ^_^). I've found a new blog site, modblog.com, that I like so much more...gives me the freedom to express myself. My site is [link] if anyone wants to check it out! I'm still workin on it, but I think its coming along well.

WARNING: Sad stuff. Skip this paragraph if you dont like sad stories.

Anyway, you might or might not be wondering why I am up at 3:35 pm writing silly little posts on the internet to distract myself. As some of you know by reading my sisters posts, my dog Bruno has been living a hard life this past month. Well, this morning (or last morning...) we finally decided to end his suffering. I got to ride in the back of the truck with him when he was taking his last ride...something he loved to do when he was younger and was able to hop up in the carseat without bad hips. Probably the moment I hate the most is when my dad asked bruno if he was ready to take a ride in the car, and his ears poked up and he tried to pry his way off of the floor with his bad hips. He hadnt taken a ride in years, but he still knew what it was...his first ride in years would be his last...he loved every second of it though. He went very peacefully since we gave him tranquilizers before they gave him the shot. I was so glad to be right there next to him when they did it; I really think he appreciated it. I was surprised on how quick it happened. It was 2 seconds...and then he was gone. I cried like a baby when he went...and still am. I wish I could get him out of my mind, but I dont want to forget about him. He was practically a brother to me, ya know? We shared 12 years together, he saw me through my whole childhood. The wierd thing is, is that I feel guilty leaving him outside all alone in my yard...but I know he isnt there. Instead, he's up in heaven painlessly chasing bunnies and waiting for me to come meet him and my two other dogs someday. Strange how much of a bond you share with an animal; something that you cant even communicate with if you wanted to. I think that is what bothers me the most about us putting him down...how we couldnt tell him what was going to happen. I hate to think about how hes gone, but I cant get it out of my head. Shadow is also making it so much harder. He keeps looking around confused, waiting for bruno to come back, and I cant tell Shadow that he wont. He's depressed and wont eat his treats that I give him, and just lays in front of the door that bruno exited from. Damn I miss him so much. All I can do is talk about him and cry about him...I wanna hug him one last time. I even had to help bury him. But....there is a time to live, and a time to die. And it was definately his time...there is no doubt in my mind. He feels no pain anymore, no more confusion and breathlessness. Im glad that he is at ease, and I wont forget him and I hope to God he knew how much I love him.

Well, thats that. I hope I'll have the energy to go to the mall and get some new clothes tommorow, but we'll see what happens. Going to college friday, leaving wednesday to go with mom to a convention in nashville. I'll update alot in my modblog account to let everyone know how Im doin.

Anyways, I've had fun at Devart these past couple of years. I hope everyone has a great time doin whatever makes them happy...everyone on here has surely given me a good time! Love ya guys!~~~~